Blah!

Hellish Week is Over!

2009-02-12T01:24:00.002+08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY HELL WEEK IS OVER!!! Though I think the next one is coming soon! Thursday dance, Friday Cycledelics recce and I got to be prepared. Saturday is Valentine's Day (a break!) Sunday is break! Monday n Tuesday prepare for Wednesday 2202 Test which i haven study. On top of which I have to webcast two 2103 lectures and also read up on my statistics!! GOSH, so much thing to doooooooooooooooooooooo.

TH is Floorball Champions for 08/09!!!! YAY!!!!! My first and maybe last medal of my life. The matches were really intense and just looking at them play takes up so much brain juice! GO TH!! TO BE IHG CHAMPIONS!!!! It will be a close fight.

EMCC was a BLAST! I'm missing it already. I just love performance days! SO exciting, SO nervous, SO adrenaline pumping, SO fun! MAKEUP, PHOTOS, DANCE! WHEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Photos will be on facebook, waiting for people to tag me because i got no camera!

Next up, Dance Productions on 21st March. Will be choreo-ing one item and dancing in three! So all stay tune yeah!!

I'm very tired!!!! Still got to read my practical handout for tml! :( Meanwhile, tata!

BLASTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! =)

Ikea

2009-02-04T17:00:00.004+08:00

Today's lunch was expensive! Since we had two hours break, we the four students decided to go Ikea for our lunch. Took a cab down. Ordered our lunch before walking around at queensway for a while. Bought a honey milk tea which was super super super sweet and milky and it cost $1.80. BLAHHHH. Sweet Talk where are you?? Took a cab back to school for our last lecture of the day. Unbelievably, for today's both lectures, I had periods of sleeping and zoning out. Other days, with the same amount of sleep, I could manage to pay attention during class. Wonder what's wrong with me today.

Tuck's surprising BIG lunch. Salmon potato and pasta.

Mine. Shrimp salad, meatball pasta and two chicken wings.

Have to say that the chicken wings are really really good. (:

MJ. MJ. PICNIC.HELL.

2009-02-01T23:00:00.008+08:00

Met Ben, Tuck & Zee on thursday (初四) for a MJ session. It's a socializing session for us four guys! lol. Finally a break from the study woes of school. Ate at Billy Bombers for our 团圆饭 and it was kind of costly for the type of food we had!! We ate the Citibank Set Lunch which cost about $30 in the end.

One of the nicest milkshake i think.My set meal! Ribs and chicken leg. The sauce was kind of overly much and it gets to you after a few bites of meat. The potato salad was so so.
After our lunch, we went to Zee's house for MJ! He was seriously in luck because he kept winning! And Tuck was sucking our money every round with his KONG and GAR. He never fails to do either one. >.<

Friday was another MJ day. Kai was saying Alah Pijay won't be in hall so we can play MJ with the door open. So after their cheer, we were playing in Kai's room. It was a good day for me, played big games and managed to win them. Got the winning feeling and it was very good! Lol! But after a few games, guess who walked past. Alah Pijay. >.< Wow. Luckily, he wrote Kai's name and we continued playing after a while with the door closed. At the end managed, to win $11.50! Shiok. First time winning. =D

Had to wake up early the next day for Odac's Picnic at Marina Barrage. Woke up, had breakfast and left hall. Thought I would reach there on time but it was only 930am when i reached Marina Bay MRT. And guess what, Rina told me that everybody will be late as usual. So, I had to just stone there and listen to my MP3 and choreo dance. Sometimes its good to be alone, BUT I WAS SO TIRED from lack of sleep that I decided to take a snooze and wait for Rina to come.

Didn't realize that the barrage is actually built such that it is like a tourist attraction. Quite a nice place to go. Especially at night I think. To view the night sky of Singapore. Will try that one day. The museum is very cool, showing all the technology of the barrage plus how Singapore manage to get her own source of water. Water is definitely important for us. Enough said. The weather was really sunny and I got a burnt from staying in the sun during our picnic. The rest of the people came like at 1pm for a 10am picnic. >.< Played the nostalgic game, UNO. It was freaking funny when during one game Johnson suddenly threw all his cards, saying....

"uno uno game
huh u all dun get it ah.
see. skip skip skip skip 4 skip my tun
reverse reverse my turn
den last two card
uno uno game lor"

Then we all stunned. And started laughing. IT's REALLY DAMN RANDOM. I never had this much laughter for some time. The picnic was really happy! =D

The early birds! Jiaying, me with Rina behind her camera holding her picnic basket which she is super proud of! Haha.

The whole lot who went on that day, excluding Tze hin who went late.

Nostalgic photo. Taken when they visited VJC after the picnic. Hehe. The first row of flags belong to my batch. Blizzard, Cyclone, Hurricane, Tornado, Typhoon & FINALLY WHIRLWIND!! =D My Outdoor Leadership Group. The flags were up there since 2003 and after every year or every OLC, they will shift one flag to the left. And finally, our batch's flags will be up there for the last year. Oh man. It shows how long we have left VJ and how old we have become. =S

Anyway, I will be having hell for the next few weeks. My schedule is very very packed with intensive physical activities. I wonder how I will be able to survive.

Monday - Amazing Race stuff to settle
Tuesday - Dance plus Amazing Race stuff
Wednesday - Dance plus Amazing Race stuff
Thursday - Dance plus Amazing Race stuff
Friday - Amazing Race recce overnight
Saturday - Dance
Sunday - IHG Floorball carnival (whole day)

That is excluding floorball trainings which I don't know when.

Monday - Dance
Tuesday - Exon Mobile Campus Concert Full Dress Rehearsal
Wednesday - EMCC
Thursday - Dance
Friday - Amazing Race

Seriously, with this kind of timetable, how do ever find time to rest, let alone study???? Seriously, I feel very shagged out just hearing it. I wonder how I can persevere through all this. ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Talk about wanting to study and do less stuff. OH YAH, still got Dance Productions stuff to settle. Well done. >.<

Live Des Live.

Mahjong Blues

2009-01-24T04:56:00.002+08:00

GOSH!!!

Mahjong is everything about luck and seating arrangement. I can't believe my own luck!! Nan Feng. Guess what? I was sitting in front of some undergarments, socks and towels. And throughout the whole night, when I was playing, I couldn't game big. Guess i only won 2 or 3 times. And all of them were small. Many a times, when I was already waiting to game big, someone will just game!! And they will game small. GOSHHHH. Moreover, I made many mistakes such as throwing the wrong tile which prevented me from gaming, not taking tile after taking a flower. And these errors were done when I could game big. @R%#$^$#&$%&$#*%^

The most most most irritating thing was...

I decided to play small and any how play with one flower since I was the "zhuang". So, I did anyhow play but through out the game, I took more and more flower until I had 4 tai. BY THEN I WAS ONLY WAITING FOR MY EYE which was a "dong" and nobody will throw. When it was about the last few tiles, I decided to change to "bei" and discard my "dong". Then I drew the second last tile and I got a flower. o_O AND WHEN I TOOK THE TILE FOR THE FLOWER, GUESS WHAT TILE I DREW. I couldn't believe my luck!!!!! GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I DREW A "DONG". Which equates to "hua shang" and "hai di lao yue". In all, I could have won 5 tai plus self draw = $9.60. :(

And after 1 round, I lost $5.60 in total due to this unbelievable luck.

So, in future, do not sit in front of undergarments, socks and towels!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LUCK IS EVERYTHING AND EVERYTHING IS ABOUT LUCK.

:S

After Eons...

2009-01-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

Finally going to type something after a long long long long absence of not typing anything. Was just too preoccupied in studying for exams and slacking during the holidays. Though the semester has already started, why am i here blogging? I'm just taking a break from studying, though i just started like 15mins ago. This semester is definitely the most killer semester I ever had. 5 day week. Monday 10-12 2-4, Tuesday 12-6, Wednesday 9-12 2-4, Thursday 12-6, Friday 12-2 4-6. Its really non stop action every week. Well, the advantage of this is that, at the end of the whole semester, I will only be having 3 PAPERS instead of the usual 5 which I had been having. Taking Understanding the Universe and one experimental module, both of which are non examinable. Good in the sense that I have no exams to worry at the end of the whole semester, bad because I have to put in the effort week in week out.

Guess what! I kind of like Understanding the Universe. I have learn what is a solar and sidereal day, a tropical and sidereal year, sidereal and synodic month, how the calendar is the way it is, how the days have gotten their names, stars and their constellations. On top of which, we learnt about eclipses and the most cool thing is that THIS COMING MONDAY (CNY DAY 1), THERE WILL BE A PARTIAL ANNULAR SOLAR ECLIPSE!!! AND YES!!! YOU CAN VIEW IT IN SINGAPORE!!!! wowwwwww. I guess not many people will bother to notice it as they will be all busy visiting.

CNY again, ever since my grandma passed away, my CNY sort of changed. Moreover, as you grow older and the elderly passes on, there seems to be lesser places for you to visit. Kind of getting boring for me. Sigh. But i don't mind visiting my friends or even have a gathering or sorts. I think my house will be open as usual. But doubt many people will read this post though.

This semester isn't a good one. Many things have happened and I'm kind of sad that it happened till what it is now. I do not know how to express myself but I think only a few people know about it. Can't imagine that human relationships are so fragile. Guess they really mean it when they say that relationships are up to the people to maintain it and make it good. But I seriously don't know how did things happen till the way they are now. If i could, I would never ever want this thing to happen. But i guess, it's now too late. It's hard to recover lost things. :(

On a lighter note, I have been practising for Blast's Exon Mobile Campus Concert, and I'm kind of glad I am back in Elson's item. Fast. Strong. Sharp. Energy packed. Stamina draining. Kind of dread and glad I'm in the item. I think it really improves my dancing! Will be choreoing an item and dancing in 3 items in all for TH Dance Productions. SO BUY TICKETS FROM ME AND SUPPORT ME!!! :) Really stressed out about it because I don't know how my item will turn out but lucky I'm collaborating with Huiyi. It should turn out good i hope.

Other than dancing, I have been studying and catching up with my work for these past days. Yes, I know it's only the second week of the semester, but I want to be up to date with the current lectures and start understanding them when I attend them. It's been good up till now. Though, I'm quite tired by sleeping late everyday, but I will ENDURE!! I really need motivation and pushing. BUT ALL THESE IS FOR MY CAP!! I really want to understand my modules and get ready to go Toronto. Many people have been telling me to go for it and it is really a good chance to expose myself to a new environment (which i clearly need). My parents were telling me not to go because it will be very cold. Haha. But i guess they will be supportive of me. So I should just go and put away unhappy stuff! Yay!

Alright, I should stop this super long post. >.<

Rain

2008-11-09T05:01:00.002+08:00

It's 5am!! And it is raining very very very heavily. It was to the extent that even my almost close windows were allowing rain to enter my room. o_O Going to finish my ecology term paper soon! 50 more words or so and conclude! Gosh. I am filled with lots of deadlines. Ecology term paper on Monday, Metabolism test on Tuesday, Planet Earth practical on Wednesday, Evolution Presentation on Wednesday.

WTH!!! IT'S THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL FOR GOODNESS SAKE! AND I'M NOT EVEN STARTING TO PREPARE FOR EXAMS DUE TO THESE ASSIGNMENTS. ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Seriously, I am going to be so dead. With the limited time and continuous paper for 4 days, I will not be able to finish studying and memorising everything. Wat a screwed up semester.

The time spent for supper, practices, lazing around talking. :)

Happy but Sian

2008-11-07T03:37:00.002+08:00

It's finally going to be Family hour. The time spent coming up with choreo, teaching the juniors, watching them improve is finally going to end. Me, myself will be doing the senior's item and i really hope to put up a good performance. But it's hard, because dancing together is not only dependent on one person. Everybody got to put in the effort to work hard and put up a good show. I'm beginning to feel that i want to dance with committed people who want to really dance. Well, this is hall. The juniors really improved a lot. People who couldn't really dance initially have finally gotten the feel for hip hop. The learning curve for them is kind of steep. To learn and remember steps, positions and also to put in the expression is never easy. It's all part and parcel of being a dancer. Well, despite the many good points, there are still people who are unsure of their steps and i'm really afraid they will bring the show down. I just got to hope that somehow they manage to do well on tuesday. Another thing is i feel that the effect or feeling of my choreography can be expressed better, but the juniors are still not able to do so. Probably got to settle for the best that they have showed so far. Maybe a little pushing and pressure will help? Who knows.

Exams are coming and I am still busy finishing my assignments, term paper, practical and studying for my last test. I don't even have the time to prepare my other modules and I feel so screwed. 1 week study break is definitely not enough. Papers will be on 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th nov, 2nd dec. GOOD LUCK!

DANCE AWAY AFTER THAT!!! =)
Blast Camp, TH Dance Camp, Studio Wu.

Longggg Post

2008-10-30T01:30:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i blogged. Been busy with many stuff. Had blast anniversary practices for almost like everyday for the past few weeks. On top of that, had to choreo for juniors for family hour. On top of it, had my evolution project to do, ecology practical, etc etc. It was really a very tiring and stressful period. >.<

Glad that i survived it. Anniversary was over. I felt the performance wasn't the best one we had. People still couldn't get the timing. But oh well. Not everybody can commit to learning and practicing. Got to get used to this kind of thing. I definitely prefer an item where people are all committed to it and want to work hard to make it nice. Aloha Changi Fairy Point Chalet IS REALLY GIGANTIC. It's those colonial style houses refurbished. Wow. Left early after the performance and watching of some Shut up and dance videos. Went to Huiyi's house to get her car before we went to ChompChomp for some feast! Her dog, Benjy was really easy to bribe. Gave him some treats and he allowed me to touch him and call him to come. He could sit and shake hands apparently (good or bad? hmm. lol). Ate fried prawn mee, black carrot cake, 2 chicken wings each, 1 stingray, 1 soyabean chinchow. Shiok! Stingray sucks though.

Was supposed to join a dance competition organised by National Health Board. But we decided to pull out as there were people who could not commit. I realized that if i had joined, i will be having practices everyday on top of my family hour practices. In addition, i had to finish my projects, assignmentsm, study for my test in like two weeks time. PLUS EXAMS ARE LIKE IN A FEW WEEKS. WTH. I have yet to prepare for every subject. So gonna die.

Today's field trip was to Sungei Buloh. The don't know what time i have been there this semester. o_O Contributed much information to the group though the i feel that my cute TA did not talk as much as other TAs. Saw many animals today. Small mudskippers and Giant mudskippers, tree climbing crabs, frog, various birds, halfbeaks (fishes), many adult monitor lizards, one juvenile monitor lizard and one black snake with white spots all along near its bottom. After speaking with my TA, i feel that i'm still unprepared with what i am going to research on in future. Gosh. It's going to be year 3 soon. Got to decide soon i guess. Biology field trips and labs are still the most fun part of NUS academic life.

The sudden truth hurts. But what can i do. I have just got to move on. Time will be spent on dance, completing assignments and STUDY. Shall chiong. My mood is bad. Help me. >.<

Night. Sea.

2008-09-25T05:00:00.002+08:00

The serenity of the night.

If only it was out at sea.

Hearing and seeing the splashing of waves under the moonlit sky.

The dark sea.

Giving a feeling of despair.

Sweeping away anything that dares belittle it.

Mother nature is taker and a giver.

Wishing for the sea.

wow?

2008-09-23T04:47:00.001+08:00

its amazing to see how fast things can change...

wow...

tata!

Dance. Variance in mood.

2008-09-23T03:31:00.002+08:00

WHEEE! Signed another 10 classes at Studio Wu. The new studio looks really good. Especially being located at SMU's Li Ka Shing library. MAN!! Why cant it be located in NUS. Imagine having a dance school located inside your SCHOOL!!! Unlimited package for me!! Everyday, finish class or having break, just pop by the Studio, dance, and then go back for lessons. ROCK man. Felt good today. Sweated a lot during Choon Hui's hiphop class. Managed to catch the choreo fast. Dunno whether it was easy or i have improved! Anyway's it was a good feeling, putting my 100% everytime we do the whole choreo. Adding of groove and style to the dance certainly made the dance better. Next was Bryan's class. My first time attending a J/K pop class. He was focusing on the up and down beats which are really important for every dance. Glad i managed to catch every step EXCEPT for one psycho motor step. Ok not really psycho motor. Just that i couldnt catch the beat and couldnt remember the pose of the move. But overall, I could catch the steps provided i see someone doing the steps. Got called out by Bryan together with another lady to show the class. Was stunned for a moment. And guess what, i buang the part where i couldnt catch and somehow the nerves got to me and i buang the last part too. Felt v sad!! But well, I should be glad that I got called out to show people! =) At the end of the two hours, my shirt was about half drenched in sweat. Kind of gross, but wth. hahahaha. I think i should bring an extra shirt with me the next time i dance.

HAVE TO CHIONG FINISH MY REPORT, IF NOT I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO STUDY MY OTHER MODULES! ROAR!!

I realized i am quite affected by the actions. WHY AM I SO AFFECTED?! GOSH. FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS. STUDY STUDY STUDY. DANCE DANCE DANCE.

普通朋友!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nice song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow

2008-09-18T12:00:00.003+08:00

week 6 is coming to an end soon. gosh. how time flies. about half the semester is over and i dont really know what i have learnt for the past few weeks. seriously have nothing much to talk about it. but this sem is worse than last sem. last sem though got DP, it was still studying mode. i guess i should stop focusing on other things and just study and dance. it should work out some how. i guess.

yesterday was the first blast class. was fearful before the class start as i thought that my tutorial will end at 4 and i have to rush into blast class with patrick teaching the class and me getting niao-ed at. PLUS it was the first class so it was like being a freshman. dam. luckily, my tutor finished discussing tutorial questions in half an hour, gave us the after tutorial assignment to do and i managed to finish it at 3.

the class was fun though. lina took us instead of patrick. there were like so many juniors. wow. and good dancers man! feel so lousy. the choreo was easy to pick up! and with all the coordinated stomping and stuff, it felt really good. somehow during the class, everything seems to go in. but nearing the end, i felt tired and somehow stuff did not really get into my brain. was worse when i came back to hall to practise.

oh well. sem break is here soon. shall chiong all my modules during this period and not do other stuffs. i hope. must get over the urge of doing other things. so i guess from now onwards, it will be.......

STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!

DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

=)

Dance. Dead for test.

2008-08-29T16:34:00.002+08:00

Convo is over! Though the dance was only less than a minute long, it was fun. I was the only guy amongst all the girls. O_O Amazingly the performance stress came when i just got on stage. The bunch of them were all shouting "Go Desmond!" it made me stressed la!!! but oh well, lucky not much screw ups! haha. Got into blast. But i think they needed guys that's why. Didn't really do well during the audition, keep forgetting steps due to the stress.

Gosh. Molecular biology is shit. I din understand the lecturer for the previous 5 lectures. Today's the only lecture that I paid attention and understood what she was saying. Next tuesday's the mcq quiz and I'm gonna die! No time No time.

Other than that. It's been a good life. =)

Cold.

2008-08-24T02:43:00.002+08:00

The weather today is totally rocking. Cold to the brim. Wonder how i am ever going to survive if i managed to go toronto.

Been sleeping late these few days! Tired but fun! =) Better start studying man. Everything's piling up! Gosh.

I want to go overseas. Backpack whatever.. so nice to see pictures of friends who are overseas. Oh well.

21st August 2008

2008-08-21T02:30:00.002+08:00

It was a surprised which I already knew. But please dun blame shimin for it. It just slipped out of her tongue. Well, I was having block meeting in the TV lounge and I could seriously hear people gathering outside. But oh well, just act blur and continue meeting. Dun wanna spoil their planned surprise. When i saw so many people in the lounge, I was shocked. Really touched. =) And as usual, the cam whores (hmmm...) nothing to say really. Haha. But seeing so many people come, makes me wanna make block D an exciting and fun place to stay in.

D is for Dancing. D is for Demon. D is for Donkey. D is for Desmond.

D'punk! Our theme for block D! =)

Had dance audition for blast on wed. Oh man. I totally buang the steps in front of the judges. Felt dam sad. Conclusion. Cannot perform in front of judges without long practices. ROARRRR.

Oh well. There's convo performance to think about. Door ID to think about. Block theme night to think about. So scary. And i haven really study! cant find the energy to start reading my stuff. Help me pls. Dun ask me do stuff. Dun ask me for supper. Let me be a phantom.

Was told by my lecturer to try out for the minor programme as it will be good. Hope it really is. Year 3 will not be in Singapore... o_O I think i will seriously miss the friends here. How?

I realized I my post is not coherent. Jumping here and there. Oh well.

Thank you people for celebrating this day with me. =)

Thank you SP, f|sH appreciates it (dont think you will read it).

Thank you Devil, I will wait for your treat! =)

1 week of school.

2008-08-16T01:09:00.002+08:00

It's gone in a blink of an eye.

Ecology and Evolution is fun. Evolution lab, I was learning about skulls of apes and human and about evolution. It was cool.

Question is, did man really evolve from apes?

Metabolism and Molecular Bio just suck completely. Metabolism just has too many information to remember. Makes me puke. Molecular Bio, the lecturer SPEAKS SO FAST THAT I CAN ONLY CATCH THE LAST FEW WORDS. totally sucked. notes wasnt that good. I was totally lost for lectures. Dam. I guess have to buy the $110 book already. >.<

Planet Earth is how cool. So many TH people taking. LOL. Well its quite interesting. Learning about planets and the big bang. Will learn about chemical reactions with minerals of the Earth, will learn about plate tectonics and geology of the earth.

This semester like have to buy a lot of books!!! blah.. dam ex...

Academics aside.

Hall stuff.

Wow. Yr 2 in hall is really busy. Seeing people taking up leadership positions in committees and stuff. Was asked to be the block head for the block. But had to think of dance n oac. Dance is really not settled and it is quite disturbing in the sense, like there's nothing confirmed. Other then these stuff, I still wanna go dance schools and learn dance.. frens have been asking me to join dance blast... I WANNA STUDY.. how am i supposed to do all these things and still do well for studies to go toronto.. I dunno which one i should give up.. help help help..

as block head, lets make the block fun!!! was thinking of pyjamas party and stuff like that.. how exciting man.. lol..

Emo times are sucky.. thanks frenz for being there and giving me advice.. hope dancing will turn the blues away..

OrientaTION

2008-08-09T12:27:00.002+08:00

it was fun. it was tiring. it was fulfilling.

It may be an orientation for the freshies, but i felt that it was a dam good bonding session for the seniors. Pple you may have just noe, U got to noe them better. Pple you may not noe, U got to noe them better. Life in hall may just have become better. It's great being a senior.

Awaiting, the arrival of next week. Gonna go dance. YEAH! Glad to have my dance partners! Dance definitely takes my mind off things. Right timing for it now.

D4 short wing rocks. Glad to have familiar faces around you. It would be good if the B1 pple could have stayed too. Plus craig moving to D4 instead of staying at E1. Cock sia. Hopefully D block will be fun loving. The year is just starting and things are just getting exciting. woot.

Decision making time for many people. Taking up positions for committees and stuff. Crunch time!! It may seem tough, but i think its great being able to work with people from your batch. Oh man.

I have no photos to show yet. But if u wanna see, can go facebook. just got a photo tagged by johnson.

School is starting on monday. OMGOSH.

Done.

2008-08-09T12:26:00.002+08:00

It's decided.

Hope to revert to my old self.

Dance away!!

Busy.

2008-07-25T23:57:00.002+08:00

Wow. really busy since moving in on monday. counselor's camp was really non stop action packed. went through the games, couldnt play the most exciting games. =( oh well. 2 years in a row, i wont get to play the slope. guess its my fate. late nites n early mornings really makes it seemed like an operation to me. back in army was planning till late, moving out for exercises, coming back late and clean up.

Got to know more people. q fun playing around. totally love counselor's dance. too bad i wont get to dance in the dance that i helped choreo-ed. well. at least there's a hip hop dance i get to dance to. but i totally love the masks especially at the ugly side part. ahhh... hope it will turn out nice.

I think that i will try for toronto once i find out whether the two level 3 modules can be handled by a year 2 student. guess my study path will be different from the others le. alone for most parts. is it ok? will i survive? only time will tell.

it's onli 2 more days to orientation.

trying my best to talk properly. >.<

awake. thoughts.

2008-07-20T06:17:00.002+08:00

wow. im still awake. prob because i finished a mj session at 5 plus and i gotta go out at 7 plus. been awake since 12plus saturday afternoon. OMGOSH. feeling totally tired and hungry now. took the time to pack stuff for hall for i foresee i will sleep once i come back later. nothing much left to pack except my fish tank, laptop, speakers and food. dam. its a lot of stuff. how to carry up 4 stories!!! @#^#$^#$!@#$ And i cannot exert myself. >.<

4 weeks more till sch starts. i started looking at the modules n planned many different versions for my timetable. if i am to minor, i definitely gotta take the lvl 3 mod this sem. and the best scenarios i can have is either...

1. 5 modules with exams on the 25th 26th 27th 28th Nov and 2nd Dec and 4 day week

2. 4 modules with exams on the 25th 26th 28th Nov and 2nd Dec plus 5 day week plus lab report every week.

3. 5 modules with exams on the 25th 27th 27th 28th Nov and 2nd Dec and 4 day week

WTH!!!!

I have a feeling my coursemates wun be taking this same mods as me. Time to meet new people i guess.

ok. i think i am not gonna go out anymore. too tired and hungry.

tml is moving in day. o_O
looking forward yet not looking forward to it.

i wanna dance during orientation but am told by the dentist not to exert myself too much. was told to avoid crowds as much as possible. was told to rest and just show face during camp n orientation. haiz. but i have to do my best to avoid stuff to prevent mum from worrying. y cant my operation been done earlier.

ok. ROARRRRRRRRR. im having mixed feelings.

psst.

2008-07-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks till the removal of the plastic and metal on my upper jaw. den i can start my chewing! phew. all's well but i still cannot exert too much just in case. after the 6th week, i can slowly start to do physical stuff. yeah.

not supposed to talk to much. but today talked a lot. lunch at soup spoon. walk ard orchard. cut. dinner at ya's house. gosh. she can cook. o_O

yes sn. i will consider toronto. think goin overseas will be good. maybe something i can look forward too.

dreams are there for you to achieve. have conviction.

Headache.

2008-07-16T01:09:00.002+08:00

Just checked NUS mail. There's a joint programme between NUS and University of Toronto for Environmental Biology. Quite cool. Year 1 year 2 clear the required mods (1 level one and 2 level 3 mods) then end of year 2 apply for the programme. If accepted, the whole of year 3 will be spent at University of Toronto studying 4 modules. Come back for honours in year 4. Sounds very very cool!!

But this means that i have gotta take two extra lsm mods this year on top of my CONFIRM CHOP SUPER HIGH INTENSE MEMORISING N TIME CONSUMING level 2 mods. Bidding period is like in 2 weeks time. Gosh. What should i do?

Sometimes, I wonder why didn't i go overseas to study. Singapore is just too competitive. Muggers everywhere. Haiz.

If i did go overseas, I wouldnt have met the people i know right now.

Does it matter?

I have no answer to that right now.

Will that be the best for me?

Dunno.

Confused.

Unchanged.

2008-07-15T14:56:00.002+08:00

Days still ticking away. It's now the 4th week after my operation. Wow. Time really pass very fast.

It takes two hands to clap.

It takes two to have a conversation.

It just needs an effort from both sides.

Guess nothing has changed since then.

Slacking.

2008-07-15T14:50:00.002+08:00

For the past few days, I have been chionging Cabal. Up skill level and character level. Really shag.
Watching One Piece at the same time. Had to say, some episodes were totally brainless and funny. But it was kind of hard for me to laugh and it was tough trying to restrain the laughter. =(

Thursday will be the day where my dentist will decide whether I am able to go for camp. o_O

Doing nothing.

2008-07-09T23:49:00.002+08:00

It's been a week. Today went for checkup again. Doctor say recovering well. Rubber bands still not removed. It is to hold the jaws together to make sure the biting is correct. Oh well. At least i can still eat.

Everyday...
Wake Up.
Eat lunch.
Play Cabal.
Watch tv at night.
Play Cabal.
Read book.
Sleep @ 3-4 am.

Wat a life. Porridge everyday. Lucky got pork floss to add to it. If not, i will die die die. Oh well. Still thinking of how to source for porridge when i go back hall to stay. Hope by that time i can at least eat kway teow or mee. Next week, my dentist will tell me whether i should go for councillor camp. >.<

BORING LIFE.

Road to Recovery.

2008-07-03T21:24:00.002+08:00

Finally, the dentist removed the rubber bands that were holding my lower and upper jaw together. Can finally separate my teeth. However, it's still kind of sore at both jaws and just opening of my mouth was a pain. Nevertheless, I was glad. Finally i can take in congee and food. The hunger is just killing me.

Took a X-ray. The dentist showed my orginal bite and my new bite. My teeth is perfect! =D

Just when i thought consuming congee was a joy, I found it hard to consume it. My dentist told me not to open my mouth too big as the bone on both jaw is still soft and there's only the screws and plates to hold it in place. Felt dam sian. As i was at the food court waiting to eat but in the end i cant eat. No choice had to bring the food home. Decided to further blend the congee and use the syringe and insert the tube past my teeth into my mouth. Finally, it worked and i managed to consume the porridge.

Felt some pain on the jaws after removal of the rubber bands. Still debating whether to go for councillor camp. Will try my best to drink lots of milk and stuff like that. Oh well.

Food.

2008-07-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

I wish to make salad. Bake cookies. Cook something nice.
RArr.

Ladies. It's a choice for weight loss.

2008-07-01T20:29:00.001+08:00

Went to measure my weight and stuff like that.
Before operation: 55kg
After 5 days of not consuming food and only able to consume liquid food: 51kg

Muscle mass went down considerably. Im considered below average. >.<
Fat level is still low though.
When i can start to open my mouth, I am definitely gonna chiong my congee and porridge and campbell soup.

Yay!

2008-06-30T18:21:00.001+08:00

Went dental appointment today.
Doc took X-rays.
Said it was fine.
The screw that was protruding is not realli protruding.
It's just the swelling on my face that's causing it.
Other than that. Looking good.
Thursday will be the day he takes out the bands and see whether there will be any reaction.
Hopefully, i can taste my porridge.
Starving.
Like.
Mad.

Weird Dreams.

2008-06-29T21:20:00.002+08:00

Wah. First time sleeping at home since operation. Hard to to sleep.
Need to maintain 45 deg posture and not move my head or body and yet sleep well.
Hot.
Heat rash.
On air con. Since dunno when...
Had weird dreams.
Dreamt of many many different short stories. Or i should say short dreams. Just like the short Singapore Ghost Stories those kind. Realli stunned. Cant believed my mind was that active.
Waking up is unbearable.
Headache. Lack of fluid.
Oily face. Cant really touch it.
Wanna die.

Operating Theatre. Recovery. Hunger. Loneliness.

2008-06-28T18:09:00.004+08:00

Tues 24/06/08:

At Mount Elizabeth, there was only one thing i could do. Wait.

Operating staff came to find me at my ward to bring me into the theatre.
Lied on the bed looking at ceiling.
Excited. Yeah. Panicky. Not really.
Thinking of anything? I dun even noe whether I shld be thinking of that.
Finally the anaesthetist came in after a long period of lying on the operating table n listening to my heartbeat which was apparently pounding quite fast.
The room was clean with super a lot of power lights for the op.
My dentists' soon came and after asking the question, "Are we ready to start?" and a reply of "Yes" i was soon knocked out immediately.

Woke up in the high dependency unit after a 6.5 Hours operation.
Major? You bet.
Felt a swollen face. Lips protruding like crazy. Bleeding like crazy. Couldnt do anything. Just slept until the night. Ask the nurses quite a lot of times for the time. It was really passing very slowly.

5.30pm

9.30pm

1am

During this time, I hardly slept. Trying my best to breathe using both my mouth n my nose which were blocked by blood n mucus. As the operation involved practically most of my face, blood were definitely oozing out in the masses. Had to do lots of suction in my mouth to remove the blood. Had this two pumps to collect the excess blood too. Too bad. din took a photo.

This period of time was really tough.

I felt lost.
I felt lonely.
I felt helpless.
I couldn't talk.
I could only rely on the call button for the nurse to prevent me from choking on my blood.

It's hard to explain in words.

Wed 25/06/08:
Felt much better the next day. At about 1pm, I was moved to a normal ward where i continued suctioning of blood from my mouth. Luckily, there was lesser blood. Mainly, plasma, which continued to choke me. Finally turned on my handphone. Saw a few messages. Glad to see a message.

Zhiyuan, Lianghe and Elsa turned up after i replied Zee of my ward and bed number. I bet they were shocked to see my face. I was too initially. I din expect myself to look like that in the foreseeable future. Fat n swollen.

Ben came in the evening. Before which my doctor came to take a look at me. He was observing my right cheek and he told me that the screws and plates had somehow moved and it was causing quite a lot of swelling. He tried to manually adjust on my face. Pain was the only the thing i can say. Had to endure. He said to leave it till the next day and observe the situation, at most had to go for another op.

An hour later, he came back telling me it was better to go for the op. In the morning, there will be a lot of operations going on. Plus later in the night there won't be any operation at all. Parents were there. Bet they were worried sick but there wasn't much thing they could do.

At 1030pm, in the bed i lied. Already had an operation. Going for another operation. What more could i worry. He will only remove my right stitches at my right gums move through my cheeks and adjust. Great. This time, i had sedation instead where I slowly breathed in the anaesthestic and slept.

After 1.5 hours, I woke up. My right cheek swelling was going down. Felt much better. Tried to sleep. But the blockage to my nose and mouth was killing me again. Had to trouble the nurses to suck out the mucus and stuff. Tried the nose suction and it killed me. Though it did remove blood and plasma, It didn't had much effect. Had no choice, but to watch the Germany and Turkey match.

Thurs 26/06/08:

Finally managed to sleep in the early hours. Antibiotics and prevent gastic medicine was injected through my one and only IV tube.

Pain.

Endured.

Recovering.

4 odac peeps came to visit me. JO KS RT BX. Then another odac peep which i din see for some time came. JY. Felt at ease to see them. Bet they were teasing me about my swollen face. They took quite a number of photos. I cant do anything to stop them. Zee came soon after them. Felt much better. Swelling went down. Breathing was normal till 4 plus 5, where i had no choice but to close my eyes and try to sleep.

Lying in Bed since tuesday was bad. I was getting heat rash and there was nothing to do to stop it. It further spoiled my deprived sleep. As usual, at night was spent tossing and turning. This time tried to watch the Spain Russia match, but i could only hear the sounds. Was too tired but could not sleep due to the rash. It was a torture.

Friday 27/06/08:

Doc say to remove the drip from me and that if today i can intake water on my own, tomorrow i would be a free man. Felt happy.

Lonely throughout the day.
Stoning.
Tried to sleep.
Tried to watch tv.
Tried to not think of stuff.
Quite hard.

Last night in the hospital. Yay.

Saturday 28/06/08:

Had a much better sleep was trying to sleep on my side but keep my head straight. The rash din manage to get me much. Doctor told me i will go home and i was glad. Packed my stuff before my parents came. Drank my breakfast of plain fish soup and milo. Waited.

Finally before making a payment, I took off my glasses to clean my face. My mum noticed that the graft on my left side cheek was seemingly higher than my right side. They immediately called my dental clinic, but my doc had a conference. After some waiting and panicking, we went back to the clinic after being called back. Luckily it was at Paragon. Waited for my doc to come. The nurses at the clinic said i look much better.

When he came, he took a look at me. And i sensed something was wrong. He asked me if i was willing to take a jab while he enter my mouth for the third time to adjust the screw n plate. Sensing that i was afraid of it, he told me asked me whether i felt pain when he tried to adjust manually by physically moving the screws n plate on my face. I had no choice but to endure.

Pain.
Again.

Finally, after three tries of pushing. He managed to push back the screws and plate into place. He told me not to work the mouth too much. It will take about 18 days before the thing sets in place. After all, my cheekbone is hollow and the screws n plates are holding it in place. A few more weeks before the cheekbone will round up.

Guess i have my answer to orientation.
Doubt i will be going.
=(

Ever since i came home, I stopped trying to talk and move about greatly. Mum was overly worried and every time a question about is it pain? why you keep touching? dont touch?, I felt angry and exasperated. I know that my mum is concern but will you please dun worry too much. I heard what the doc say and the stuff i do is only things he told me to do to prevent the graft from moving too much. Things like preventing yawning by pressing against my lower jaw to the upper jaw.

Oh. i guess i din mention that both my lower and upper teeth are binded together by bands.
Cant eat. Cant talk.

Im dying of hungry at the moment. Hoping to survive this recovery weeks.

Nv NV NV will thinking of goin for another jaw operation. The feeling sucks. Recovery sucks. Not being to able to enjoy orientation sucks.

Hope it's all worth it.

Tata.
=(

There's something missing.

sleepless.

2008-06-24T05:00:00.001+08:00

Too excited to sleep. blah. nvm. will have lots of time to sleep after the operation. was thinking of many stuff.
operation in 3 hours time.
wheee.

Operation.

2008-06-23T23:54:00.003+08:00

I have been waiting the whole hols for the operation to come. Sounds crazy and weird. But ya. Want to get it over and done with. Dun want to miss orientation coz of it. But still thinking of whether to go after my op. Guess i have to see my recovery. Will drink lots of milk.

Stuff done: Perak. White water rafting. Waterfall abseiling. Caving. K-ing. Bintan. Eat. Slack. Read books. Room allocation. Prep for op. Dance.

Gonna miss: DANCE. EAT. TALK.

Life is full of setbacks and achievements.
Life is full of emotional changes.
Life is full of friends who can be true to u.

Waiting for another chill out session like Bintan. But looks hard. The number of odac gals in Singapore is decreasing. Wy flew to Sydney today. Rt and Bx on 5th July. Lesser number of people to make fun of. Lesser number of people to K and eat supper. Lesser number of people to mahjong.

It will get better.
For sure.
=)

Calm before the storm...

2008-06-23T23:46:00.001+08:00

The storm is coming.
I can see it.
I can feel it.
But i am still undaunted.
Will the skies clear soon?
Good times ahead?
The answer to it will come in due time.
No talking.
No eating.
I will starve.
Oh well.
=(